And I wish I could find the exact moment that I became this unhappy.
It feels like it would be too long ago for me to remember.
All my nerves ache.
Everyday I want to change.
Living should never be a chore.
I want happiness and no one understands that.
No one even tries to know what I need.
I am in an endless loop of sadness, connected by a chain that weighs more than most can take.
I am surrounded by many but I am living on an island.
Where did this sorrow come from and how do I put it away.
These voids are too big to fill and I am hopeless.
At first, it was all of the violent words
Then, not ever being what someone wanted
And now, the actions are my pains.
Your lies are like echos around every step I take.
Why am I here?
Take me away.
And I wanted to be that girl.
I wanted to be your comfort
The one at your front door
I never left you crying
I always came back for more
You were the light
In all of the world
I was the shadow
Of the two sided sword
I picture your laugh
The smile on your face
I could kiss all your dimples
And take you to where it’s safe
We fit perfect
You and me
2 people 2 souls
That are just meant to be
I remember your heartbeat
I remember your laugh
I remember the way you tried to half
All the things that are important
All the things that are kind
You pull me to my senses
You’re my rewind
she says,
“come here”,
and I do,
because even though
my hands are shaking like autumn leaves
and my blood is freezing in my veins like the curse of winter,
she is flowers in the spring,
she is the heat of summer,
she is the wind,
she is the sun.
she says,
“follow me”,
and I do,
because I could never let her walk away.
I would go to the ends of the earth before
I lost her.
Finding her was the luckiest I’ve ever been.
When people climb mountains,
or explore the bottom of the ocean,
she is what they’re looking for.
she says,
“kiss me”,
and I do,
because I was afraid of the dark but now
she is the light,
she is everything beautiful.
I am afraid of sin,
but she tastes like heaven,
her bones are relics,
her skin is holy.
she says,
“love me”,
and I do,
because the crescent of her smile is enough
to make the moon jealous,
her eyes could make the stars weep.
she finds things in me I never could have found on my own.
she says,
“love me”,
and I do,
because it’s impossible not to.
she says,
“love me”,
and I do.
God knows
I do.